Wednesday, December 2, 2015

Cancer through the Rearview Mirror..

"To hell with your cancer. I’ve been living with cancer for the better part of a year. Right from the start, it’s a death sentence. That’s what they keep telling me. Well, guess what? Every life comes with a death sentence, so every few months I come in here for my regular scan, knowing full well that one of these times – hell, maybe even today – I’m gonna hear some bad news. But until then, who’s in charge? Me. That’s how I live my life."- Breaking Bad's Walter White

The first chapter in this journey is still vivid.. the early symptoms that I would ignore until I couldn't any longer...the shortness of breath and the dizziness..the feeling I had wasted a doctor's time when nothing was said immediately afterwards when I finally did break down to see a doctor..waiting for Mitch in the McDonald's parking lot after missing my bus and feeling too cold to wait for another one.. the phone call while in Mitch's truck,changing the destination of the ride from my apartment to the Emergency Room..the look of concern on Mitch's face as he's contacting family and friends while an oxygen mask is slapped on me..nurses bringing other nurses into my hospital room.. "He walked into the Emergency Room can you believe that?" then getting the word a day or so afterwards "You have Cancer"

I tell the complete story of that episode and more in my one man play "Cancer,Peace,Love,and Assorted Realities"

It's been six years now since I got that phone call. Doctors have been saying for the past five years that I'm in remission now,I don't feel anything now like I felt then,but still for whatever reasons,the doctors won't declare me cancer free yet.

6 Years later and about the only time I think about cancer now is those couple times a year when I have to do the scans and  visit with the oncologist or at the anniversary of the diagnosis.

Is it like it never happened? Not on your life. Since the days of my initial diagnosis,I have had friends who have passed on due to the disease,and some of the very people who gave me a hand during my early moments have since have been diagnosed with various forms of cancer themselves.There's an instant recognition that takes place with those who get diagnosed,and the "Why them and not me" question arises when someone passes away.

I think everyone in the course of one's life, experiences events,whether tragic or merely momentous that alters one's perceptions on it. As I begin to look at  the cancer experience from the view of the rearview mirror,it becomes one of a handful of events that helped shape my perceptions.I never let cancer define me.

During the days of my initial treatment,I was introduced to,and became an immediate fan of the TV series Breaking Bad.  I made an immediate connection with its main character,Walter White,in large part due to the fact that he was dealing with his own cancer diagnosis. Walter White in the end lived a life that I would never hope to imitate but in the act of doing the things he did,he would describe himself as being alive.

Having a sense of mortality does push one to live more freely and fully doesn't it? Or as Bob Marley would say "Wake up and Live"






Thursday, November 26, 2015

Ramblings on a Daniels Family Thanksgiving

Anyone who has known me for any period of time knows that the Thanksgiving-Christmas-New Years holiday run has never been a favorite of mine.For me,the causes of those feelings stem from various issues that I won't get into now. I can't say all those feelings are erased,but I am noticing within myself a slight change which I believe comes from now having grandchildren.

For most children in America,the holiday period is an extremely magical time and I was no exception.

...and it would begin on Thanksgiving.

Thanksgiving in the Daniels household would begin early in the morning,but never quite as early as my mom said it had to be on that day. Mom always said we had to be on the road early,but while we generally were on the road before noon,it never turned out to be the 8 or 9 am departure time my Mom would talk about.
The time it took for us to get ready for the road gave us Daniels brothers enough time to tune into the big High School football game in Hartford between Weaver and Hartford Public. On the radio or TV,we'd know who won the game,but  for us Hartford kids,it was important to know not only who won the game,but which school won the inevitable fight after the game.We'd find out the result of the fight after we returned from our trip.
Thanksgiving in the Daniels household meant sometime in the morning,the three Daniels boys,Mom,our grandmother and sometimes my grandfather piling into the Daniels family vehicle for a 5 hour drive from Hartford to Darby Pennsylvania,a town just outside of Philadelphia..
Seating arrangements in the car depended upon whether my grandfather was there or not and which Daniels brother needed to be separated.
For us Daniels boys,the trip to Darby was in a sense a trial run before the summer trip to Washington DC. After all,we would stop in Darby for the night on our way to Washington,and just like on our Washington trip,there would be the request to stop at the Howard Johnson's just off seemingly every highway stop.(the answer was usually no)There was also the unmistakable aroma of oil refineries driving on the New Jersey Turnpike.

Darby Pennsylvania was the home of my grandmother's sister. To us she was Aunt Nell. We called her husband Uncle Garvin. He like my grandfather was a World War 1 vet,and when they got together they'd swap various war stories,and sometimes perform the drills they did back then. If my grandfather didn't meet us in Connecticut,he'd meet up with us in Darby.It was certainly a shorter trip coming from Washington.

We'd also be greeted by our cousins from Philadelphia,as well as our cousins from New York.I especially looked forward to that because it meant I got to hang out with my favorite cousin Allen.
Long before the advent of the internet,my cousin Allen and I would maintain a letter writing correspondence,mainly centered around our favorite team- New York Mets.Thanksgiving would give us a chance to discuss the Mets season in detail along with speculating possible trades and ponder the age old question as to whether the next season would be THE season for the Mets.

Though Aunt Nell's modest house would be filled with anywhere from 15-25 relatives,she would insist on preparing the entire meal alone.Anyone was welcomed to converse with her in the kitchen,but assisting her in any way was a no-no.She knew how she was going to do things and when she was going to do things. She kept that practice until she was felled by a stroke in her late 80's. After that she merely stood in the kitchen barking out orders as to how she wanted things done.

We usually arrived in Darby too late to catch the televised Macy's and Gimbel's parades,but that usually meant that we would arrive just in time for the Thanksgiving NFL games.

There would be two tables set up at Aunt Nell's house-there was the "Adult" table and the "Children's" table. Reaching adult age was not the prerequisite of being admitted onto the adult table.Deaths and/or marriage with children might eventually land one from the children to the adult table.. Another Aunt Nell rule came into play as the offspring go older: No girlfriends or boyfriends allowed.That rule created a few sparks.

The TV would be turned off for the Thanksgiving prayer but given the abundance of Giants,Eagles,Cowboys,and Washington fans in the family,if any of those teams were playing,the prayer would be much shorter!
There would be a Southern tint to Thanksgiving at Aunt Nell's.In addition to the traditonal turkey,one could count on collard greens and candied sweet potatoes as part of the Thanksgiving feast.

I always looked forward to Aunt Nell's homemade blueberry pie with blueberries from New Jersey after dinner.

After dinner and after football,the living and dining rooms would be transformed into a  blanket and pillow filled master cousins bedroom. Luckily the rules about being quiet once the lights were turned off were never applied here.

The trip back home the next day would be delayed as my Mom,Allen's mom,and various cousins shopping expedition to Philadelphia would have to take place first. If my grandfather had to return to Washington,the shopping expedition gave my grandmother more time to spend with him.

The most memorable ride home came one year where fog started to roll in somewhere in Pennsylvania and got progressively worse going through New Jersey and New York.
My Mom,because of an incident where I put our car into a snowbank on my first attempt at driving,never became a passenger with me,even after I obtained my license. By the time we reached Westchester County in New York,Mom had enough..She turned the car keys over to me,and I got us safely back to Hartford..
It's all about the memories created..




Monday, November 9, 2015

Annie Louise Moore Jones-thumbnail sketches



Annie Louise Moore Jones was my Grandmother. She was born and raised in Greenville South Carolina. She met my Grandfather while attending Allen University in South Carolina. They married shortly after his return from World War 1.

After they married,they moved from South Carolina to Washington D.C.where my Grandfather first worked for the Census Bureau and later ran a successful real estate business. After several miscarriages,they gave birth to Helen Louise Jones-my mother.

A doctor's experiment which was often done to black patients left her crippled. This absolutely devastated my Grandfather,but my Grandmother seemed to have a way of taking it in stride. I remember her telling him on more than one occasion "You better be thankful I'm crippled,I'd have you running all over town!" Supposedly she loved to dance while my Grandfather was content to hang out with his pals swapping stories.

When my parents divorced when I was 5,my Grandmother came from Washington to Hartford to assist my mom raising the three Daniels Brothers. This meant her time with her husband was limited to his Connecticut visits,and we'd spend our entire summers in Washington so that they could be together. My Grandmother's efforts in the household enabled my Mom to pursue her Masters Degree in Education which led to her fulfilling her life long dream of becoming an Educator.

Being crippled merely slowed her down.It did not stop her. She did most of the cooking in our household. The things I learned about cooking came from her as I would follow her around the kitchen.

Being crippled did not stop her from being the prime disciplinarian in our household either. There were times when us Daniels boys thought we were being slick by running away from her when she was angry at us. We also thought a flight of stairs would discourage her from pursuing us. She would patiently wait for us. We all loved sitting on her lap and sooner or later we'd forget about what we had done and would find our way to her lap. She'd play along and be nice to us..for a minute before she grab us with the tightest grip imaginable. She didn't forget.
One was also better off if one took the punishment early as opposed to forcing her to climb up our stairs and in doing so,trapping us in our room. We'd then get whupped for the original crime in addition to running away from her.

She was well suited for handling the Daniels Brothers.Supposedly she was a "tomboy" growing up,known for playing baseball and smoking a corn cob pipe with the guys. There was very little that we could sneak by her.

She was an avid baseball fan. She would tell me stories about seeing Negro League games and would tell anyone interested that Josh Gibson was the greatest player of all time. She knew rosters stats and strategies better than any other adult I knew and older baseball fans both in Connecticut and in D.C.would love to stop by and talk baseball with her.

When I reached high school age,my grandmother announced to us that it was time for us to be on our own and that she was returning to Washington full time. I believe she knew her time on this earth was limited and she wished to spend the last of her days with her husband.

Shortly after returning,she was diagnosed with breast cancer.

Just before returning to the hospital and falling into a coma,she called my mom and my brothers into her bedroom.There she gave each of us profound instructions and advice. I'd be a little better off today if I had heeded some of the advice she gave me.

At the end,she told us something we thought was a case of delirium setting in. She kept saying "I'll be taking Sandy with me"

I didn't know what it meant then,but I understood later when,almost exactly to the year after she passed,my Grandfather passed away too.





Sunday, August 16, 2015

Memories of Julian Bond

Julian Bond was one of the few Civil Rights activists who also spoke out against the Vietnam War. It was his opposition to the war which gave the Georgia State Legislature the cover to try not to seat him when he was elected to the Georgia House of Representatives. He again bucked the tide in 1968,by endorsing Sen.Eugene McCarthy for President over first President Lyndon B.Johnson and later Sen.Hubert Humphrey.

At the tumultuous 1968 Democratic National Convention in Chicago,McCarthy supporters placed his name in nomination for Vice President as a protest to the Johnson-Humphrey policies.This despite the fact that he was Constitutionally too young to assume the office. In 1988,when Eugene McCarthy,on one of his third party runs for the Presidency asked me to run as his Vice Presidential candidate,I quipped to him that I was following in Julian Bond's footsteps as at the time I too was Constitutionally too young to assume the office.

Julian Bond was a friend of my High School History Teacher,the late Jack Chatfield who passed away last year.. The two worked together in the Student Non Violent Coordinating Committee (SNCC) In fact Bond was with Jack when he was wounded in a rifle attack by the Ku Klux Klan.

He was the Graduating speaker for the Watkinson School Class of 1974. My brother Howie was part of that graduating class. I was in Alaska at the time,and was planning to spend my summer there.However upon hearing that Julian Bond was to be the speaker,I flew from Alaska to Connecticut for the Graduation Ceremony,and thanks to Jack,I got to speak with him afterwards. My brother told me he even showed up to the Graduation party.

In the year 2000,I had another chance meeting with Julian Bond. He walked into the Barnes &Noble bookstore where I was working at the time. Over coffee we had a wide ranging discussion from politics to poetry. At the time I was the Grassroots Party candidate for US Senate. Julian Bond was responsible for me being the first Third Party Candidate permitted to present my candidacy to the local chapter of the NAACP. It was one of the proudest moments of that campaign.

Job Well Done Julian Bond..Rest in Peace




Thursday, August 13, 2015

50 Years a Mets Fan

The first time I ever played baseball,I hit the ball and ran to third base. That move got me laughed at. As bad as that was,it was preferable to what happened in following games while in third grade. I never as much as put wood on the ball the rest of the year inviting ridicule,scorn and even threats.

... 3rd Grade Championship Game. Bases Loaded 2 outs and I'm at the plate. Kids begin to yell "NO!" "Can we pinch hit for him?" Mr.Cuyler,the third grade gym teacher,says no and sends me to the plate.  Lawrence Young screams "You better get a hit"- Strike one swinging.
Lawrence Young was perhaps the best athlete in third grade and also highly rumored to be a gang member.(Yes,there were gangs in 1964)

Strike 2 swinging Lawrence "You better get a hit or I'm going to beat you up!" Other kids chime in "I'll beat you up too after school!"

I took a couple balls,but I already knew this wasn't going to end well. You expect the other team to be rooting against you.In my case I had everyone against me except for Mr.Cuyler and myself.

I took strike 3 swinging. Mr. Cuyler was the only one between myself and a charging Lawrence Young. Mr.Cuyler ended up escorting me home from school that day.Good thing because there were a few kids ready to take me down after school. Mr.Cuyler then encouraged my mom to expose me to baseball so that perhaps scenes such as what faced me would not be repeated.

In Hartford Connecticut,there were 3 teams that one could follow on TV or Radio.There were the New York Yankees. My grandmother who lived with us growing up was a huge baseball fan and I knew from her that the Yankees won all the time.Kids who liked the Yankees were the same ones that wanted to beat me up. I also knew from my grandmother that the Yankees weren't too keen on having black players on their team. Scratch the Yankees.

Boston Red Sox games were also readily available.In fact, all their games were broadcast on Mom's favorite radio station WTIC. Because that was the only station my mom would listen to,perhaps I linked the Red Sox with the Metropolitan Opera,Bob Steele and all the other corny things adults liked.

New York Mets games were broadcast on Channel 18,an independent station most noted for its foray into "Subscription TV" as it was called.Mets games were one of the few shows one could watch on that channel without ordering some sort of cable box.

They had a funny manager-Casey Stengel. They had a funny theme song "Meet the Mets". There was a carnival like atmosphere to their games. They didn't win too often.In fact they seemed to find new ways to lose with every game. and later I found out they were known as the "Clown Princes of Baseball"  They had a female owner,Joan Payson who baffled the hardened New York sportswriters by hugging her players win or lose. "They're my Mets" she'd say.Through watching Mets games,I began to understand baseball and even like the game. 

1965 was my first year as a Mets fan.My grandmother,while happy to share her love of the game with me for the life of her could not understand how I could like a team that lost all the time.
That year in school I announced to classmates that I liked baseball now and that I was a Mets fan. Lawrence Young: " I know why you like the Mets because you play like the Mets!" Maybe that was the case,but at least now I wasn't striking out with every at bat,and no one was threatening to beat me up anymore.
Being a Mets fan meant suffering through long losing streaks and embarrassing losses.Being a Mets fan gave one an appreciation for the underdog not only in baseball but in life. It also created bonds. My cousin Allen from Queens and I would write each other looking forward to the day the Mets would finish above the National League's basement. 

In 1969,the Mets were 100-1 odds against going to the World Series. That didn't stop me from betting an 8th grade classmate on the Mets winning the pennant,and Mr Budaj, my shop teacher primarily to keep order in the class after my statement promised to buy me tickets to the World Series if they went.
In 1969,the Miracle happened,Mr Budaj vanished from the scene,and upon arriving home from school,there was my grandmother greeting me at the door saying "I know the Mets won the World Series and I'm happy for you,but you're going to behave and keep quiet in this house!"

After the World Series,Mr Budaj reappeared and promised to get those tickets for me the next time the Mets were in the World Series. The promise did me no good in 1973,as I am listening to the Mets-A's World Series on the radio while watching the snow fall from my college dorm room window in Anchorage Alaska. There was no live TV in Alaska then.

1976-1980 were among the darkest years for the New York Mets,and by virtue of living in New York at the time I got to witness first hand the tragedy of the Tom Seaver trade and the regime of M Donald Grant. To make things worse those same years were Yankees glory years,and insufferable Yankee fans were neighbors.

1986-Denver Colorado There was a nearly 6 month Rose laughing at her Dad while her mother shakes her head in disgust as I am on my knees in front of the TV,bags packed for a trip to New York with a World Series ticket in hand, pleading for Jesse Orosco to end this 16 inning marathon NLCS game 6 vs the Houston Astros.

I was back in Denver for Game 6 of the World Series and with 2 outs and the Red Sox on the verge of winning,the Mets cap was on,the phone unplugged when Gary Carter,Kevin Mitchell,Ray Knight,Mookie Wilson and Bill Buckner kept me away from a long night at various dive bars on Colfax Avenue.

After the 2000 World Series,I asked God to keep me alive till the day the Mets beat the Yankees in the World Series. So far it looks like my request is at least under consideration though it has meant witnessing the Great Mets collapses of 2007 and 2008.

Now in this 50th year of being a Mets fan,I've got my 2 year old grandson saying "Mets" and maybe just maybe this 50th year will be rewarded with post season action.

October Update: Since I originally wrote this,the Mets beat the Los Angeles Dodgers in the Division Series and defeated the Chicago Cubs in the NLCS. The Mets are going to the World Series!!

On that note Here's my all time favorite Mets players by position
1B-Ed Kranepool
2B Felix Millan
SS-Bud Harrelson
3B Ed Charles
Catcher
Gary Carter

Outfield
Cleon Jones
Ron Swoboda
Darryl Strawberry

Starting Pitcher
Jerry Koosman

Relief Pitcher
Tug McGraw

My personal favorite Mets Moments:

1965- Mets beat the San Francisco Giants for the first time on a Danny Napoleon pinch hit double.The Giants were my grandmother's favorite team and we were watching this game together.

1969- Ed Kranepool's Home Run in the World Series. Kranepool had played on some pretty awful Mets teams and you wondered if he'd ever play in a World Series much less hit a home run.Brought tears to my eyes. (Honorable mention Ron Swoboda's catch)

1979- Lee Mazzilli's Home Run in the All Star Game. As bad as Mets teams were then,one had to take solace with small things.

 1986- Game 6 NLCS vs Houston Astros- 16 innings One of the greatest games ever played.

1986-Game 6 World Series vs Boston Red Sox

2001- Mike Piazza Home Run vs Atlanta Braves- Piazza,not Rudolph Giuliani was the true New York hero after 9/11

2006- Endy Chavez catch Game 7 NLCS vs St.Louis Cardinals. One of the greatest catches in postseason history that will never get the credit due because the Mets lost the game.

2015-Wilmer Flores. Hears from the fans that he'd been traded.With the manager unaware of the trade,he allows Flores to come to bat and take the field afterwards.Flores breaks down and cries.. By the time the game is over,the trade falls through. Couple days later in movie like fashion,Flores wins the game with a walkoff home run.

Wilmer Flores is a reminder of what makes a Mets fan.Pure love of the game of baseball and heart.




Monday, June 22, 2015

Thoughts from a New Grandfather on Fathers Day

6/21/2015
Sandy Evander Jones was my Grandfather. Here are a few facts about him.  He was born in Sumter South Carolina. Later he attended and graduated from Allen University in Columbia South Carolina,a college founded by the African Methodist Episcopal Church he grew up in.
Shortly after graduating,he was called by the Army to serve in World War I . He received a Distinguished Service Cross for his actions during that war.

Now what a lot of people don't know,and what is largely hidden from American History is that in the segregated US Army of World War I,it was the black battalions largely placed on the front lines.
As anyone can see looking at any old footage of that War,can say it was no joke. Face to Face combat,foxholes and Poison gas openly used. The word was my grandfather performed the same acts of heroism,facing greater danger than Sgt. Alvin York. Yet it was Sgt. York,a white soldier who received the Congressional Medal of Honor and afterwards became an American hero,starring in movies. President Woodrow Wilson,an avowed racist was not about to award the highest award to a black man. Sandy Jones never had much nice to say about another World War I "hero" Gen.John "Blackjack" Pershing either.
After the war,my grandfather returned home,married his longtime sweetheart,Annie Louise Moore,moved to Washington DC took a job with the Census Bureau,and after a couple tragic miscarriages,had my mother Helen Louise.
By the time I came onto the scene along with my brothers,my grandfather was a successful real estate agent.
We called him Granddaddy.

Visiting  Granddaddy's house and his DC neighborhood to this Connecticut born and raised kid was akin to going back to another time,particularly in the 1960's. Coal heated his house. The Ice man on a horse and buggy would deliver blocks of ice for the ice box. I looked forward to seeing the horse and buggy run by the Watermelon Man. Garbage was burned in a barrel in the back yard,and it seemed as no one had an electric dryer as one would see clothes lines at every neighbor's home in sight.

Every summer,my mom and the Daniels brothers would embark on a journey to my granddaddy's house. We would leave on the day following  the last day of school and would only to return to Connecticut on the day before the first day of the next school year.

While Granddaddy lived in the Nation's Capitol,the rural sense of life never left him.In 1962,our family drove from Washington to the family homestead in Sumter,and my most vivid memory of that trip was my granddaddy,soon as the car stopped,taking his shoes off and walking down the dirt road.

He'd awaken soon as the sun began to rise,and would begin working on something...maybe it was something in the yard or in the house that needed repair,and it would drive him absolutely crazy that I preferred to spend my mornings in bed. My ability not to see a piece of paper dropped on the floor or notice that my shoes were untied would astound him.

His rural sense also emerged in a property he owned across from him home. The property was large enough for another house to be built there.He probably could have made more money by doing so.Instead that land was a garden,and neighbors were free to rent the space he wasn't using. He'd grow corn,tomatoes,okra,green beans and collard greens. He would take me to his garden,but it wouldn't be long before he would chase me back to his house after I'd step on one too many of his plants. He'd go on saying things like "You city boys have no idea where your food comes from..you think it comes from a store!"
He would take us boys to his real estate office.I'd write using the carbon paper,and draw on the chalkboard before complaining to him that I was bored.

The primary reason we would spend our entire summers in Washington was after my parents' divorce,my grandmother came to live with us to help my mom raise three boys. The summers gave my grandparents time to be together in their own house. We would see Granddaddy in Connecticut as well as he would visit at Thanksgiving,Christmas,and Easter.In addition,he would make "surprise" visits..sometimes where only my grandmother knew he was coming,and other times where he would surprise even her..One surprise visit got cut short upon news of Martin Luther King's assassination in 1968.Riots in DC forced him to return to check on his office.
Granddaddy and my grandmother had a particular banter between them. He'd call her "sister".My grandmother would answer back saying "I am not your sister! Your sister is Bertha"..,and she'd go down the line. It was not easy for them to be apart for months at a time.They did it because they felt it was in the best interest of the family to do so. There's another vivid memory of a "hot date" my Granddaddy and grandmother were supposed to have.The "date" was going to be on their front porch and not even my mom was going to be allowed there. A Daniels brothers spy mission proved to be disappointing as the "hot date" consisted of eating Watermelon and listening to Washington Senators baseball on the radio.

He knew about dealing with hardship and tragedy. In addition to the miscarriages, a doctor's experiment,similar to those done to Black Men in the Tuskegee Experiments left my grandmother crippled for life. There was nothing he could do about this situation.That event gave cause for him to encourage my mom's husband in pursuing his medical career. It was his belief that having more black doctors would reduce the risk of such experiments being performed.

Divorce can be hard for all involved,but Granddaddy continued to maintain a rapport with my Dad and continued to support the achievements in his career.
Granddaddy was a storyteller,there would be the war stories and the country stories,many he would tell over and over to the point where anyone listening could finish the story. I think that's the way he wanted it.
He'd use things I liked to make a point. Point to me: "Cleon Jones (New York Mets outfielder and my favorite player) isnt going to care about your life.He made his life,you're going to have to make your own!"
While my grandmother was big on baseball ,Granddaddy loved football. My love of football developed through watching games with him.
When my mom was back in school pursuing her Masters Degree,seeing as she could not spend the entire summer in DC,I decided to go to Washington on my own to spend time with Granddaddy.My mom and grandmother thought this was a disater waiting to happen.They knew his habits and they knew mine. Predictions of a blowup were rampant. Granddaddy did make sure I got out of bed early,and he did have a list of chores for me that were to be done by the time he returned home from work..Mowing the lawn was something you wanted to do early anyhow in the muggy Southern summers of Washington and I did learn that there was plenty of time to get the chores done and still goof off. It was one of the best summers of my youth.
At High School age for me,my grandmother decided it was time to spend the last days of her life back in Washington with Granddaddy.Shortly after returning,she was diagnosed with breast cancer and passed away after a year in Washington. As she was passing,she told us all something peculiar.She said she was going to take Sandy with her.

A year later Granddaddy was diagnosed with a terminal cancer. There's another memory of him being allowed to come home one last time,and over the loud protests of my mom and brothers,him grabbing a ladder and climbing on top of his garage to repair something he meant to fix before entering the hospital.

I was escorting Granddaddy to the bathroom at Walter Reed Army Hospital in Washington when he collapsed and died in my arms.

There's definetly something to influences and there very well could be something to spirits being passed on,but I'm the storyteller and gardener now.

If I could only be close to the influence he was to me to my own grandchildren..






Wednesday, June 10, 2015

Thumbnail Sketches:Adventures in Politics

One could say my life in politics began with the events of November 22,1963.It was shortly after those events is when I decided I wanted to be President of the United States.

Amongst many of my friends and classmates at the time,it was  preposterous to consider that a black man would ever be elected President much less for a black kid to think it should be a goal. As a kid I was laughed at,and sometimes cruelly teased for having that ambition. I can't say that treatment didn't hurt,but one person who never said it was impossible was my mother. Not only did she encourage me in my goal,but told me about the things I would have to do in order to get to the office.

Around 1964 or 1965,I participated in my first election campaign,leafleting on behalf of a neighbor and father of my best friend,Allen Hodge Davis who was a candidate for Hartford City Council. He lost. I remember being astonished wondering how come folks couldn't elect such a good man to office.Little did I know at the time that it wasn't going to be the last time I felt that way.

1968 was the year I first became involved in Presidential politics. Since November 22,the CBS Evening News with Walter Cronkite had become my favorite show.Night after night there was coverage of the Vietnam War complete with casualty figures.Granted,I wasn't very good at Math,but something seemed fishy to me as to what was going on in Vietnam. I then became a weekend volunteer for the anti war candidate for President,Minnesota Senator Eugene McCarthy who challenged President Lyndon Johnson for the Democratic Nomination. This put me at odds with my mother who just four years earlier had worked for Johnson's election and whose political hero was Vice President Hubert Humphrey. Her admiration for Humphrey stemmed from his support of a civil rights platform in 1948. When President Johnson dropped out of the race in '68,my mom was enthusiastically behind the Presidential candidacy of Humphrey. Needless to say the dinnertime discussions got rather lively at times,but in reality I was following she had ingrained in us the Daniels brothers from a young age. "Stand up for what you believe in".

There was something else that concerned her about my involvement in the McCarthy campaign.Because of his anti war stance,the McCarthy campaign attracted a lot of "hippies".There were rumors of marijuana smoking at McCarthy campaign headquarters. I was questioned about possible marijuana usage every time I returned home from volunteering. I never observed any marijuana smoking at McCarthy headquarters,but I witnessed my first "smoke filled room" four years later at the local McGovern for President headquarters minutes after Richard Nixon was declated the winner by landslide. By now,I had experienced the plant.

The 1972 Democratic Platform Committee meetings in Washington D.C. was the last political event my mom and I participated in together,and it was my mom's meeting with a committee person from Alaska that led to my first meeting with Alaska's Senator Mike Gravel.

By 1972,I knew I would be attending college in Alaska. Part of my attraction to Alaska came from what I had concluded from my research on the state.Seemed to me that Alaska had a tendency to give a platform to "outside the box" political figures. Given who I seemed to be,and given what Alaska seemed to be,this was a good match.

Mike Gravel had first by his reading of the Pentagon Papers onto the Congressional Record and then by mounting an unorthodox candidacy for Vice President had already established himself as one who didn't play by "the rules" We hit it off immediately,and shortly after my arrival on the campus of Alaska Methodist University ,I became an unofficial liaison on student affairs to Sen. Gravel's office and would meet with him during his visits to the state. At AMU,I was elected to the Student Assembly largely by motivating students not normally inclined to participate  to vote,and by infusing pothead code words into my candidate statement published in the student newspaper.
It wasn't long after observing how power operated that I found myself becoming disillusioned with politics,and for the first time since November 22,1963,I became unsure as to what I wanted to do in life. Also by now marijuana smoking had become a regular part of life and I began to reason that a person who "inhaled" had no shot at becoming President. Those factors played no small role in my decision to leave college.

At the time I dropped out,I figured I'd spend a year away to experience life outside of campus and either return to politics renewed or pursue my newly discovered interest in theater.I was not counting on spending the next 8 years of my life with Gospel Outreach!

In the beginning of my time with G.O. strict withdrawal from "the world" was practiced, That  withdrawal meant not participating in politics. Around the time I was to leave Alaska to join G.O.'s New York branch,word had gotten back that an Evangelical Christian,the Governor of Georgia Jimmy Carter was running for the Democratic nomination for President. There were also some churches stating,that Former California Governor and Actor Ronald Reagan,then challenging President Gerald Ford for the Republican nomination was "God's Chosen". When I arrived in Brooklyn,the discussion at G.O. still centered on whether participation in politics helped to advance the "Kingdom" or not,but voting in the 1976 Presidential Election or not was going to be left between God and us.
That Presidential election was the first where I was eligible to vote.From November 22,1963 on,I had looked forward to the day where I could cast a ballot. Now,whether I was going to be "allowed" that opportunity was going to be left in the hands of "elders". Once it was left to us,there was no way I was not going to vote on Election Day. In that Presidential election,with evangelical Jimmy Carter and President Gerald Ford Democrat and Republican respectively,I cast my first Presidential ballot for Independent Eugene McCarthy.

Around the period of time of events leading to my departure from G.O.,I had befrriended a man named Dwight Filley. I first met Dwight at a candidates forum in Denver where he was a candidate for Congress representing the Libertarian Party. The ideas of the Libertarian Party were not new to me. While at AMU,I had met representatives of the newly formed party,It's ideas on limited government had appeal to this  college student,who was witnessing abuse of government power both on domestic and foreign fronts. Later,I became aware that Eugene McCarthy had glowing words to say about the Libertarian candidate for President in 1980.
After leaving G.O.,one of the first social events I would regularly attend was the monthly Libertarian Party cocktail parties held in a Capitol Hill home. I later discovered that the Libertarian Party's birthplace was Denver,and I met one of its founders,Colorado resident  David Nolan at the one of the gatherings.It was also through the cocktail parties where I met and befriended another former East Coast resident now living in Denver named Doug Anderson.

I jumped back into politics full bore as the campaign manager for the Libertarian candidate for the Colorado State House in Capitol Hill. He didn't win,but the Denver Post in its endorsement of the Democratic opponent acknowledged the visibility of the campaign.

It was a beer soaked discussion at a pizza joint with Doug on Denver's East Colfax Avenue led to the 1987 run for Mayor of Denver. With the race technically being a non partisan one,it was believed there was a chance for Libertarian ideas to gain  more attention without the stigma attached to being a third party candidate. Even so, we figured the involvement would be minimal, guessing at best,the candidate would be invited to 2 or 3 debates.Even that was more than a Libertarian candidate  would normally get. There was no money that could be counted upon,nevertheless Doug and I agreed it would be worth obtaining the 300 signatures needed to appear on Denver's municipal ballot. Furthermore it was agreed that I would be the Mayoral candidate and Doug would run for Election Commissioner.(It should be noted that the beer soaking was all mine as Doug,a bartender at the time was a teetotaler.)

The incumbent Mayor,Federico Pena was swept into office four years earlier by appealing to Denverites to "Imagine a Great City" He was also helped by a freak May snowstorm on Election Day reminding Denver voters of a Christmas Eve blizzard that then Mayor William McNichols underestimated leaving Denver paralyzed for days..The realities of governing failed to live up to the expectations of many,thus when it was time for Mayor Pena to face re election,he was faced with several formidable challengers,many from his own Democratic Party. They included Denver Auditor Mike Licht,State Senator Dennis Gallagher,and former State Representative Miller Hudson. Also running was businessman Don Bain,the only Republican in the race.

The announcement of my entry into the Mayor's race was covered by both the Rocky Mountain News and Denver Post. Westword,Denver's alternative weekly heralded my entry as the "first of a handful of fringe candidates expected to enter the race".Rather than the usual third party tactic of blasting the writer for writing off the campaign, I wrote back thanking the writer for that entry citing various mainstream ideas that began with "fringe " candidates. That writer became a friend,and later gave the campaign good coverage. As the campaign rolled on, the media seemed to latch on to the stark contrast my candidacy was to the other candidates. At a Chamber of Commerce forum,I argued for a proposed new Convention Center and Airport being financed by the businessmen in the room as opposed to taxpayers.At a candidate forum sponsored by the Police Union,I stated how Denver's biggest gang problem was the gang in blue suits wearing badges,prompting a plainclothes man assigned to protect Mayor Pena to give me his card afterwards stating "If you get elected,you will  need protection." To my surprise,the invitations to the debates continued.I had reporters assigned to cover my campaign,and enough money was flowing into campaign coffers to provide for campaign literature. All this was pretty heady stuff for a guy who,just a couple years previous had left the communal existence at G.O. carrying all my clothes and possessions within one large suitcase.

 I first met Russell Means at a Libertarian Party meeting in Fort Collins Colorado. Of course I knew of his leadership role in the American Indian Movement led rebellion at Wounded Knee. Now Russell was in the process of seeking the Libertarian Party's Presidential nomination. After our meeting,Russell decided he would come to Denver on behalf of my candidacy. A month or so later,I found myself surrounded at a press conference by Means,Dennis Banks and other members of the American Indian Movement supporting my bid. It was one of the highlights of that campaign.

Another highlight was my appearance in the KUSA televised Mayoral Debate held days before the election. My response to the closing question "What makes you best suited for Mayor?" (Answer: "I'm not a lawyer or a member of the Denver Country Club") drew a reaction from an audience that was not supposed to react to any candidate.

 On Election Night one Denver television station came to my house to broadcast my concession speech.
Because no candidate garnered the  50 percent plus one needed to win,there was a runoff between the top two finishers,Federico Pena and Don Bain. One day after the election Mayor Pena called asking for my support. A week or so afterwards I found myself being wined and dined by Don Bain's campaign team,assisted by a Downtown business developer at a fancy Denver restaurant. Neither got my endorsement,but the very fact that they sought my endorsement told me this campaign was heard.

Shortly after the Mayoral race,I was elected Chairman of the Colorado Libertarian Party and on the local level continued to have a visible presence.
On the national level,the Libertarian Party was engaged in a hard fought battle for its Presidential nomination with its two leading contenders being former Republican Congressman from Texas Ron Paul and Russell Means.
Because of ballot access and fundraising obstacles third parties face,the national convention was held a year ahead of the Presidential election. I was a delegate to the Libertarian National Convention held in Seattle. At the convention,I got to speak on behalf of Russell Means,smoke marijuana with former Goldwater speechwriter Karl Hess and talk music with Dr.Demento. Best political gathering I've ever attended.
The only thing that could have gone better from my perspective would have been if Russell Means had received the nomination.Instead ,Ron Paul received the nomination on the first ballot. There were a couple political differences and a wide cultural difference between the two. Russell stated and I agreed that Ron Paul would be better off running as a Republican. I later resigned as Chairman,but I wasn't done with politics for that cycle.

I couldn't help but to be interested upon hearing news that Eugene McCarthy was going to run for President again this time under the label of the Consumer Party. I made an inquiry about the campaign and shared my experiences as a third party candidate and left it at that. The phone call I received a couple days later floored me. Eugene McCarthy wanted me to appear on the ballot with him as his Vice Presidential candidate!

McCarthy wished to have someone of a libertarian persuasion on the ballot with him as he shared many of its views. I was too young to hold the office at the time,and McCarthy,ultimately wishing to abolish the Vice Presidency, had different running mates appear in different states,but the prospect of running with the person who in essence was my first political hero made it impossible for me to say no. The highlight of that campaign was a day spent with McCarthy in Denver and Boulder appearing on radio and being interviewed by newspapers. That evening,over a bottle of wine,I got a personal history lesson on the 1968 campaign,and I was told stories of McCarthy bailing out volunteers who had gotten busted for marijuana.

It was Eugene McCarthy who,with my marriage soon to be ending, recommended Minneapolis as a place for me to explore,and when the decision was made to move to Minnesota,it was Eugene McCarthy who personally covered many of my moving expenses.

                                         Run for the Senate 2000

By the time the year 2000 rolled around,this Dreadlocked Rasta was involved with the Arts:Theater,Poetry,Spoken Word.Given that its best to write "what you know",much of the work had a social and political bent to it.This is also in the realm of Rasta practice,but the arts was providing a platform to thoughts and ideas that would quickly be marginalized in the political realm,but would be listened to in the context of art.
While I might call it just my life,those that prefer categorization would probably describe it as being"countercultural" or "bohemian" and at this time,I was much more likely to be seen at a reggae concert,smoking marijuana and "reasoning", or hanging out at a neighborhood watering hole than at a political meeting of any kind.

I became aware of the Grassroots Party shortly after my arrival in Minnesota in 1988.The Grassroots Party (now called the Grassroots-Legalize Cannabis Party) is a Minnesota based third party,dedicated to the legalization of marijuana. Over time,through various music festivals and marijuana rallies,I ended up meeting two of its leaders,Tim Davis and Chris Wright. Tim Davis' contribution helped make the Cedar Cultural Center event possible which premiered my play Malcolm X Meet Peter Tosh 
It was at a music show on the West Bank where I first shared my experiences as a candidate with Chris Wright,and it was at that show where Chris first asked me to run for the Senate seat.
When one cares about issues,it is always flattering when someone asks you to run for office,and it was flattering to have Chris ask me to run. I knew however,having run before of the commitment necessary to run a minor party effort.Though one has little chance of winning,and because of things such as few volunteers,little money,a third party candidate is asked to do more than merely being a candidate and thus in its own way, running for office becomes every bit as consuming as the major candidate that has all the funding.  I had other things going on in my life and initially I brushed him off. He asked me on another occasion and again I brushed him off.

An incident at a neighborhood coffee shop altered my thinking to where Chris didn't have to be brushed off a third time.
The Hard Times Cafe on the West Bank was raided and closed by the city on suspicion of  marijuana dealings inside the premise.
While living on the West Bank,the Hard Times was like hanging out in my living room,especially after the New Riverside Cafe had closed. Its coffee could keep one going for hours,and its eclectic mix was representative of the West Bank and was like some offbeat family of sorts. It especially came alive after bar close.
This closing over a harmless plant created within me the same type of "I'm not going to accept this" feeling as I did when my reading at the Walker Art Center was cancelled.
While the Hard Times raid was a local affair,the offer was Chris was on the table,and I thought by running I would have a statewide platform to highlight marijuana injustices such as this. I then called Chris  to accept the offer to run. Shortly afterwards I was officially endorsed at a Grassroots Party meeting,and when the Hard Times reopened it became my unofficial campaign headquarters. Laura Galore whom I originally met through my time at the Hard Times became my campaign manager.I was carried around town in carts designed by members of the Hard Times Bike Club.
The 2,000 signatures required to make the ballot were attained primarily by attending concerts, music festivals around the state and at various West Bank establishments.
Once I had to squeeze through a crawl space at the Target Center while Phil Lesh and Friends were performing to recover a clipboard full of signatures that I had accidently dropped.

As a candidate,I ran on a platform of eliminating corporate welfare,supporting a non interventionist foreign policy,and of course freeing the weed. I also stated  I would be a Senator following in the maverick and poetic spirit of Eugene McCarthy. I remember receiving a campaign contribution from an older man who stated how he didn't necessarily care about whether I was for or against marijuana,but anyone willing to emulate McCarthy on any level was worth his support.

The highlight on the campaign trail was a debate held on the campus of the University of Minnesota.The debate would include Republican incumbent Senator Rod Grams,Democratic challenger Mark Dayton,widely believed to be the frontrunner.In addition to myself,the debate included Libertarian candidate Erik Pakieser,Independence Party candidate James Gibson,Socialist Workers Party candidate Rebecca Ellis,and Constitution Party candidate David Swan. The debate moderator was Minnesota Governor and former wrestler Jesse Ventura whose third party election not only shocked Minnesota and the world,but also gave a greater focus to the efforts of third party candidates in the state. The flashing of cameras as the candidates entered the stage was more like something I would have imagined for some celebrity
I don't know what shocked Mark Dayton more,the fact that I understood more than marijuana or that I was willing to "break the rules" to get a point across.In an earlier question Dayton promised funding that as a Senator he was constitutionally unable to provide.I called him on it despite of rules forbidding candidates referring to previous questions. Dayton's shocked reaction was captured in a photograph that landed on the cover of the Uof M's Minnesota Daily paper.The move drew Ventura's attention and immediately gained attention for what I had to say for the remainder of the debate.
There was also the "no touching" rule instituted by Gov.Ventura when I patted Mark Dayton's back,encouraging him to be real.
There were limited appearances after that debate.Word got out in part through a weekly candidates questionnaire in the (Minneapolis) Star Tribune where I got to quote Peter Tosh in a question concerning violence in America.

Word also got out through a series of offbeat,irreverent 30 second radio spots created by John Perkins from the Twin Cities band Vinnie and the Stardusters.  John created spots asking whether "one would be more comfortable knowing the dime bag in your sock wasn't illegal" or "isn't it about time to throw the fat sweaty white guys out of office?" All the spots featured the music of Vinnie and the Stardusters.There was a Twin Cities station that read a disclaimer prior to running the spots.On another occasion the on air dj couldn't help but to comment on the radio ads. After the election,when analyzing where votes came from,I have no doubt the radio ads helped to bring in votes.

The campaign for the US Senate garnered over 21,000 votes,more than any other third party candidate in the race. In 2014,I found myself on the ballot once again as a candidate for Lieutenant Governor on a ticket headed by Chris Wright.
In the end,I look at the adventures in politics as in a way accomplishing what I had set out to do as a child.There were no guarantees I was going to get elected even if I had played the game like my mother had hoped.
Politics is a strange animal,and I no longer believe electoral politics can even be a major catalyst for change. I can say that and still never rule out what may or may not happen in the future. At the time of this writing however,I can safely say I'd rather devote my energies elsewhere..




Saturday, May 30, 2015

Thumbnail Sketches-Reggae Theatre Ensemble Denver and Beyond

The accolades received after the staging of Malcolm X Meet Peter Tosh were greatly appreciated especially considering the obstacles we had to overcome in order to stage it,yet the glow from its success seemed like a short burst of sunlight in a sky full of storm clouds.

The New Riverside Cafe was in trouble financially,paychecks were getting smaller making it difficult even for people accustomed to living simply to survive.The debates among various factions of this worker owned business were becoming more heated and more personal.Shortly after the play,my daughter Rose had come to live with me. The West Bank could be a magical place for a child,but also because of some of the "characters" it would attract,a parent had to become super vigilant. First by being a member of the Riv,and secondly through his support of the play from its inception,Mitch and I had become close friends. Mitch suffers with various auto immune diseases and would also get seizures.During this  period,Mitch had received a terminal diagnosis from a doctor giving him 4-5 years to live.

Later that year ,I made what now had become my annual trek to Denver. During the making of Malcolm X Meet Peter Tosh,I would talk with my buddy and now former Denver Election Commissioner Doug Anderson about its latest developments. Doug was not exactly a fan of theater nor of reggae music,but Doug knew people,and also knew a little bit about open opportunities.Now that I was in Denver,Doug took me to the Mercury Cafe to meet Marilyn Meginity.

For years the Mercury Cafe was considered Denver's center for anything "alternative"."The Merc" as it was called by locals would host bands,poetry readings,and was pretty much the only place any type of offbeat theater could be staged,and it was all Marilyn's creation.
Marilyn and I spoke about my reggae theater concept,and the response it got at the Cedar Cultural Center. "Can you bring it here?" she asked.Up to that point,I had never considered the possibility of it going much beyond the Cedar.I told her I'd keep it in mind. Our conversation ended with Marilyn giving me her phone number and saying to me something to the effect of she could see this piece"doing something" in Denver. I never told her about marijuana being smoked in the play.

Come fall,with the Riv continuing a downhill slide,and with Rose returning to live with her mother,the future seemed bleak in Minneapolis. I bought a round trip ticket to Denver, packed my most important items,some clothes,music,books,and the script,gave myself a week to find work there. I remember saying to myself "If I find work,I'm calling Marilyn,and if I don't,I'll deal with my fate in a cold Minneapolis winter" I never used the return ticket.

For Denver I knew I would be reprising my role as Peter Tosh,and I left Minneapolis with assurances from Mitch that he would come to Denver to be the "Man in the Couch" again. That left a few other roles to fill and because my previous connections in Denver were limited filling the rest of the cast was going to have to be a work of Jah.

The Yardie Lounge was a weekly reggae dancehall held in Denver's Lower Downtown District or LoDo. At one time LoDo was basically skid row,but it was undergoing a renaissance. The Yardie was hosted by DJ K-Nee,Kenneth Hamblin III ,His father was a radio talk show host,and as a candidate for Mayor of Denver,I had been a guest on his program. It was on a Colfax Avenue bus en route to the Yardie where I met Thomas Behler,and it was at the Yardie where I met Scott Kelley,who at the time was an underaged kid from the Virgin Islands not at the Yardie to drink,but rather because of the love of the music. Scott, after an interview and audition agreed to take the Malcolm X role.. The Jah Creation Band was discovered through a walk through the Capitol Hill neighborhood.Ayanna,the actress,was a co worker of mine.

It was in that same Mayoral race where I met DJ K-Nee's Dad is when I met Alan Dumas. He was a writer for the Alternative weekly Westword and covered some of the debates for the paper. He was now a theater writer for the now defunct Denver Rocky Mountain News.In its day,the Rocky's daily circulation rivaled that of the Denver Post,and I always seemed to run into more people who read the Rocky Mountain News. He became fascinated with the thought of a former candidate for Mayor turned Rasta Playwright and wrote an interview piece for the Rocky.

I remember feeling the sense of worry after attending the theater piece that was running while we were in rehearsal,counting three people in attendance and wondering whether it really was going to be worth it,and the sense of elation when backstage on opening night,Mitch leads me to to a window in order to witness a line out the door waiting to get in.
Because there was to be an extended run at the Mercury,it was decided that there would be varying amounts of marijuana used for each show,and the all marijuana spliff could be any from the first to the last.
Opening Night,the first and the last spliff was 100 % marijuana.
People would come once and come again bringing their friends.,and yes some folks would walk out,some offended by the marijuana usage or the dancing taking place in the aisles or in front of the stage when the band played.Closing night at the Mercury,with my Dad in attendance,every spliff was real. All this led to Alan Dumas calling Malcolm X Meet Peter Tosh in his Year in Review in Theater piece "The cultural event of the year." It also led to an engagement in Fort Collins Colorado.
This performance was to be for one night on the campus of Colorado State University.It was sponsored by a local reggae business in Fort Collins as well as the radio station at Colorado State. For this show,I decided as director that the first and last spliffs would be completely real.

As the play began I noticed a yuppiesh looking guy his face for a moment frozen with surprise when the first spliff reached him in the front row of the audience before excitedly pointing out to his date.His lips seemed to say "It's REAL!!"

The Jah Creation Band played an extended set following the performance,and it was during that set where I was questioned by the Fort Collins Police Department as to possible marijuana usage. Meanwhile,the dressing room and the outside of the theater is surrounded by cops. No arrests were made,but I was advised by the police in that familiar Western way,that it would be best if we packed it up and got out of town as quickly as possible. Later I discovered that contrary to my instructions where we were only to bring as much marijuana as needed for the play,someone had packed enough marijuana to which,if it had been caught would have meant a much longer stay in Fort Collins than we had planned on. As Jeff from Rasta Connection was paying us for the performance,he slipped  me a little more than what was agreed upon.He said something to the effect of using the money to follow up on this effort by creating a piece that deals with Marcus Garvey..

Malcolm X Meet Peter Tosh was staged the following year for another extended run.This time at the Bug Performance and Arts Center in Denver.
Shortly after the Fort Collins show,Mitch had returned to Minneapolis and the Couch role was now being filled by Thomas.
In the period after Fort Collins,Scott Kelley had become dreadlocked and now was in perfect position to assume the role of Peter Tosh freeing me to focus solely on directing. James Crutchfield made his stage debut as Malcolm X. Native American storyteller Lisa Slicer was brought on for the reporter/storyteller role. Jah Creation was replaced by the 8750 Reggae Band from Telluride Colorado.The first time I saw the band, I immediately apologized to the band leader Rasta Stevie after the show for previously doubting that a white man could be Rasta or that an all white reggae band could be true to the message. Humbled and blessed by their participation was I..

During the first run of Malcolm X Meet Peter Tosh in Denver,I came to know a man named Ken Gorman. Ken was the force behind rallies at the Colorado State Capitol to end the prohibition of marijuana. Ken would advertise his rally by promising free weed at the Capitol and would back it up by smoking marijuana and by giving away joints on the Capitol steps. Ken was aware of what took place on the various stages,and his rallies were fertileground to promote upcoming work.

On the second night of performances at the Bug,Ken was in attendance. Marijuana smoking began in earnest in the audience long before any smoking action begun onstage causing some in the audience to walk out. Little over halfway through the performance,flashlights were now peering through the audience.It was the Denver Police. The audience cheered as Thomas on the couch blew smoke on the cops as they reached the front row. It wasn't planned that way,it was just the synchonicity of it all. Scott as Tosh launched into a fiery monologue on the evils of Babylon as police handcuffed Ken and  3 others over shouts from the audience shouting "Let em go!" When some cops began shaking billy clubs to the rhythm and music of the 8750 Reggae Band,I overheard a member of the audience ask "Is this real or part of the play?" As the writer and director of the play,I wanted to give the police every opportunity to arrest me if they were to arrest anyone. I left my seat and made myself available to the police.They weren't interested in me.I then walked outside to see where police had roadblocked the street,and had blocked off the alley where 8750's tour bus was parked.

The next day a headline in the Rocky Moutain News' theater section read "Bug's Malcolm X sends audiences smokin" By the way,the performances at the Bug were the only time where no real marijuana was used onstage during the course of the run.
Word of the play and my reggae theater began to spread beyond the confines of the cities where it had run.I soon began getting calls and inquiries from various folks in the reggae community.Stories about the play were appearing in national and international reggae publications. One person showing considerable interest was Bob Marley Archivist and writer for (the first big reggae and world music publication) The Beat Magazine Roger Steffens. I first got to meet Roger after his presentation of "The Life of Bob Marley" in Boulder. Not only had Roger had personal interactions with Peter Tosh,but he was also an actor thus he was extremely interested in what I was doing.We agreed to keep in touch and talk began then about a future collaboration between the two of us.

                                                     I Edgar Hoover
In writing Hoover,I chose to loosely focus the piece around the former FBI leader's harassment of UNIA leader and Rasta prophet Marcus Garvey.More broadly it riffed on such topics as Corporate America's undue influence via television as well as the unconstitutional and racist actions of the United States Government.
Originally,the role of Hoover was to be played by Ken Gorman.He certainly knew a thing or two about illegal government actions,and yet if one met Ken,often seen in jacket and tie,he easily could  have been mistaken for some sort of officer. However,Ken's marijuana activism was going to prevent him from devoting time in rehearsals needed to make it work.. The role then went to Jason Richards,an acting novice who I met while spending time at the 13th Avenue Bar and Grill in the Capitol Hill neighborhood. In observing him at the bar,there was something about his demeanor that I sensed he could pull the role off. Maggie Ebert had acted in several productions around Denver,but looked at Hoover as an opportunity to do something experimental,something that was rare in Denver theater then. Maggie had the role of Anarchist Emma Goldman,another one of Hoover;s enemies. I met Maggie while spending time at the 13th Avenue Bar and Grill. Kristy Moore was doing various Dinner Theater plays,and John Reed,as Marcus Garvey had also done some theater.You could say the cast was largely assembled at the 13th Avenue Bar and Grill,because it was through that establishment with its cheap beer and roundtables that I met John and Kristy also. Thomas and Marie Paule Vandevelve provided the drumming in Hoover with Thomas adding some Nyabinghi type chants to the theater. Hoover was the first piece "officially" presented as a Reggae Theatre Ensemble production. Shortly before Hoover opened at the Mercury,there was a backstage meeting with Jamaican Dub Poet great Mutabaruka. Mutabaruka read the script and gave it his approval
Closing night of Hoover,the drummers were joined by Rasta Stevie.
Not only did Jason as Hoover pull the role off,he carried the show.He was a perfect blend of sick humor,craziness,with a dash of a twisted sense of sincerity needed for this portrayal of Hoover..He captivated with his  monologues and the chemistry was obvious between Jason and the rest of the cast.
Jason provided an electric ending to Hoover with the words "Goddamn Television" coupled with the obliteration of the set. Hoover was well received,drew great audiences,and was given the offer to go beyond the original run,but for various reasons I turned it down and on the day after closing night,I was on a plane,headed back to Minneapolis.The Reggae Theatre Ensemble at its core was a partnership between Mitch,Thomas and myself.


                                       Kolorada...a western tale

Writing another play was the last thing I imagined would be happening when I returned to Minneapolis.. Despite the success of the two plays in Denver,there were other events occuring in my life that prompted my return to Minneapolis,I was pretty angry about the events that had occured leading up to my return,and thought that would preclude me from picking up the pen.However as I began to process those events in the quiet of the Minneapolis late autumn and early winter,there came a creative stirring and out of that stirring out of the pen came Kolorada...a western tale. It in many ways captured my Colorado experience though it did so through the eyes of various characters..a Denver Broncos football fan,a Rancher,and a Boulder based deadhead. There was also a Rasta mystic portrayed. Later,in honor of a beer mogul based in Colorado,a stormtrooper character was added .What was stirring was a  performance piece that captured the spirit and message of the previous two plays,yet was something that could be performed solo. Kolorada was subtitled " a Roots Rasta view of life in America"
Kolorada was first performed at a couple small venues,including the New Riverside Cafe,then in what was to be both a creative test and a personal redemptive move,it was presented in Denver,at the Bug.
Kolorada closes with a redemptive story that honors the individuals who in their own way exhibited love and assisted me through some dark days.I began to discover that in writing and later performing that closing scene titled "Valerie's Story" performed not as a character,but as me telling a story,,the anger began to heal. Kolorada was well received in Denver and later returned for a second run.
The collaboration with Roger Steffens and myself became a reality with Kolorada opening for Roger's Life of Bob Marley presentation at First Avenue in Minneapolis at an event co sponsored by Radio Station REV105 where now Kevin Cole was the Program Director. There were over a thousand people in attendance,many sitting on the dance floor quietly,watching and listening to an unmiked stage production of Kolorada.
Kolorada...a western tale to this day remains the most performed piece in the Reggae Theatre Ensemble stable.  It found itself on stages such as New York's Nuyorican Poets Cafe as well as faraway stages like Anchorage Alaska and Freiburg Germany
It was shortly after its appearance at the First New York International Fringe Festival where I was informed that I was a recepient of a Many Voices Award and Fellowship from the Playwrights Center.

Flashback to a moment in New York at Fringe Central where every Fringe performer was promoting their play if they weren't on stage at the moment. Thomas was outfitted in something akin to a sandwich board,with on one side the dates and times of the performances of Kolorada... and other the other side notes scribbled on by marker stating "We Need Weed" That advertising led us to a marijuana delivery service who ended up delivering marijuana directly to us at the theater during our run.


                                 Black Hippie Chronicles

Black Hippie Chronicles actually has its roots at the same time and place as Malcolm X Meet Peter Tosh. A portion of the Chroncles dealing with a road trip to Alaska was written at the same time I was writing the reggae theater piece. At the time it was written,I didn't know where it belonged,but I knew then that at some point I wanting to bring this out. It took a few years before it found its place.
It was during my Many Voices Fellowship where it made its first public presentation. I inserted it in a piece I had titled "I &I Roots Story. I & I Roots was the story of how a middle class raised African American comes to a Rasta overstanding.(How Rastas call the Western term understanding) The script had as characters the kid in different stages of his life along with a teacher. It received a reading at the Playwrights Center as a result of the Fellowship. The marijuana code words inserted into the work drew the attention of those in attendance who had followed my work and knew what role marijuana played in my writing but overall I felt I had forced something in to meet some sort of setting.
A year or so later,while working at a Downtown Minneapolis bookstore I meet the actor and monologist Spalding Grey.Spalding Grey was a master of the autobiographical monologue.While he was most noted for Swimming to Cambodia,my personal favorite was It's a Slippery Slope.While talking theater with Spalding,I bring up "I &I Roots Story. His advice to me? If its about your life,make it autobiographical,don't try to hide behind to hide behind "characters". "I &I Roots Story" then reverted to the working title I had given the earlier portion:Black Hippie Chronicles for indeed my path to Rasta stemmed from my period as one of those rare black hippies. Black Hippie Chronicles' first staging came after Spalding Grey's tragic suicide.It would be performed in the same manner that Spalding Grey would performed his monologues..with a glass of water and notes in front. It included my stories about the Kennedy assasination,the first time I smoked marijuana,as well as a story of attending an Allman Brothers concert.

Black Hippie Chronicles was the last piece connected with the Reggae Theatre Ensemble.Mitch went on to other creative endeavors. Thomas went on to become a noted Denver dancehall DJ under the name of Blood Preshah. Afterwards,my work would always be connected to the Rasta Reggae sense and message,but different avenues to express it were opening up as well..


                                   









Wednesday, May 27, 2015

Thumbnail Sketches-The Roots of the Reggae Theater Ensemble

One could say the roots of the Reggae Theatre Ensemble began in Alaska by blowing the opportunity to appear in Frank Brink's play.
One could also say the roots of the Reggae Theater Ensemble began with my weekly reading of "The Weekend Love Forecast"-a comedic spoof performed while I was a canvasser for Greenpeace.

 Or maybe it was my role as Billy Williams,a fiery labor organizer in the (South Minneapolis)Whittier Community Play "Flying Crooked"  directed by Jon Orem and Ben Kreilkamp is where it all began. At the time of that play,  I had recently come to know I was RastafarI and had just begun to dreadlock ,and clear in the memory is the discussion held with Tony Paul of KFAI Radio and host of its reggae and world music program shortly after its run.Tony was also a musician who performed in various theater productions around town. His take? Few roles for a black dreadlock available..
One wouldn't be wrong in declaring that any one of those experiences or all three is where it came from,but there is also clear root tracing back to the West Bank neighborhood of Minneapolis.

The West Bank of that era was a magnet of sorts.For some time now,"hippies" had found their way onto the West Bank,but it wasn't exclusive to hippies."punks",activists and artists of all stripes found there way onto the West Bank also.
Chances were that if one was an "outsider" of any sort passing through Minneapolis for any reason,you were drawn to the West Bank.

My life on the West Bank began with my work at the New Riverside Cafe,a worker owned,worker managed vegetarian restaurant also known as "the Biomagnetic Center of the Universe" Not too long after I began work there,I rented a cheap room across the street from the Riv at a place called the Holtzterman. I was one of the lucky ones that didn't have a roach problem in my loft space. I became completely immersed in the countercultural experience that was the West Bank.It was also a neighborhood that culturally accepted RastafarI. Rasta "reasoning" sessions,and righteous reggae music were regular West Bank occurances.

I joined the Many Voices Workshop at the Playwrights Center in Minneapolis in part on the recommendation of a couple actors I worked with in "Flying Crooked",but I joined not with the intentions of writing a play or anything creative for that matter. I had previously written pieces that found their way into high school and college publications,and once in a Denver based magazine,but those articles were all of the journalistic variety. On top of that,I had been dealing with a seven year writing block from that style of writing. I was merely hoping that perhaps if I was in a room of writers..ANY kind of writer that I might be able to crack the block. The Many Voices Workshop was one designed for African American Playwrights and an assignment was given to each member  to write a piece that would first get a reading at the workshop followed by a staged reading at the renowned Walker Art Center .The theme for the readings was to be a Tribute to Malcolm X.

Malcolm X Meet Peter Tosh,a reggae themed theater piece featuring an imaginary meeting between the two cultural giants was birthed in the Holtzterman with parts of it being written after a night of reasoning,reggae music or maybe after an evening of marijuana smoking on the Holtzterman deck or time spent at Palmer's Bar across the street from the Holtzerman.

The night before the Playwrights Center reading,I asked Mitch Olson to read my script. Mitch was a co worker at the New Riverside Cafe.I had never worked directly with him,but would often see him at various West Bank gatherings,particularly when marijuana smoking was involved,and who now was,for various reasons crashing at my loft on a regular basis.
He had an appreciation for art,and at one time was in charge of the art work displayed at the Riv. I also knew him to be one knowing what Rasta style and message was about.  If I was going to embarass myself by bringing this script to the Playwrights Center,I trusted Mitch to tell me and the script would have ended up in the Holtzerman garbage. Mitch said this piece needed to be heard.

Many approached me after its Playwrights Center reading expressing how they were moved by the piece,yet at about a week before its Walker reading,it's abruptly cancelled.Later word got back that the event was cancelled because none of the tributes to Malcolm X "fit standard theatrical fare"
Next thing you know,Mitch and I are signing a contract to stage the play along with presentations by all the Many Voices writers at the Cedar Cultural Center located on the West Bank as part of a tribute to Malcolm X to be held on his birthday. To say I was pissed at the cancellation is putting things in the mildest of terms. At the same time we have no clue as to how we were to pay the Cedar should few show up.

The cancellation of the Walker reading seemed to have disappointed many on the West Bank and the groundswell of support given us after our decision to stage it ourselves seemed like nothing short of a miracle from Jah. Tony Paul agreed to stay with the project and he was soon joined by Dwight Thompson,another KFAI radio personality.The revised script called for a reggae band. Van Nixon from the popular local reggae band The Maroons then signed on,bringing other members of the band along with.
Folks in and around the West Bank became even more curious about the project when first, actor Terry Bellamy,noted for his work at Penumbra Theater and elsewhere as well as one of the Many Voices mentors,continued to meet with me at the Riv and began to serve as an unofficial dramaturg for the piece,That was followed by a contribution from local dj,radio personality and regular Riv customer Kevin Cole. It is Kevin who arranged a meeting between myself and Andrew Tosh,Peter's son who was in town for a show.. Tosh,upon reading the script says the play honors the spirit of his Dad.
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It was becoming clear to me that something special was being created..special and potentially dangerous.
In the Walker draft,in the spirit of One Love and Inity(Unity) the topic of marijuana is brought up,but was never a source of conflict. Now,under the encouragement of Terry Bellamy to bring more of a theatrical conflict into the piece,the differing viewpoints on marijuana as presented by the two main characters is now a part,yet the reggae style presented in the original script is maintained as being central to the piece.
Terry also encouraged me to create a "bridge" between those more accustomed to a traditional theater setting and those who would naturally gravitate to the VIBE this reggae theater work was aiming to create.
The "bridge" became a non speaking character in the play called "The Man on the Couch" That character became Mitch Olson.That character would begin this play with a slow walk from the audience to the stage,and in doing so,in his own way engage the audience in his walk.In many respects,I was taking a page from what I saw Ben Krielkamp achieved so brilliantly in "Flying Crooked."
Only Mitch and I knew that the marijuana joints to be used in Malcolm X Meet Peter Tosh would be 100 percent pure marijuana. After all,this was going to be a most accurate portrayal of Peter Tosh,and it was known that Tosh routinely smoked marijuana in public.
There was as much time planning escape routes from the Cedar should the cops show up,as was putting the details of the play together itself.

Thanks to the promotion of the evening,conducted on various KFAI programs,various flyers designed to target different audiences that might me interested in the event,and a word of mouth buzz that eminated from the Riv,but had clearly spread throughout the West Bank,our escape routes were blocked as instead of the 50 or so people Mitch and I expected,the Cedar Cultural Center was filled to near capacity. I looked around and told Mitch before we went onstage "Looks like we're going to jail tonight."

Malcolm X Meet Peter Tosh closed out the first half of the Malcolm X tribute. By the time it ended,folks were dancing in the aisles in front of the stage amidst the clouds of ganja smoke provided by Peter Tosh and the Man on the Couch and in the words of Peter Tosh,"Nah goa jail for Ganja"
In other words we lived to tell the story not behind a jail cell. Little did we know at the time,that in a few months,we would be repeating this story in Denver.

The Original Cast: 
Malcolm X -Dwight Thompson
 Peter Tosh-David Daniels
 The Reporter-Tony Paul
 Man on the Couch-Mitch Olson 
The Band-Van Nixon,Markiss,Brian Alexis